Friday, July 16, 2010

Brokenness and Healing Hearts






















Me - "so I have made two self observations: That I have a obsession with the concept of love and that I like really dark stuff(movies and such)..."
Rachel - "well that makes sense in a way that both of those can coexist with you without contradicting each other"
Me - "Really?"
Rachel - "yeah, because dark things are often a symbol of brokenness and all broken things that are worth fixing (at least in your mind) can be fixed by love. see? makes perfect sense"
Me - "Wow...that does make sense"

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Just another Summer day


Ahhh Summer days ^_^ *sigh* it's been so nice to be able to just enjoy the freedom of being me these last few weeks. No papers to write, no teachers to please, and do deadlines to make. :]

My days have been filled with friends, fun, and sun! Today was a very good day as I got to spend some one on one time with the sisters this morning and friend time this afternoon. Mary, Krissy, and I were able to go for a nice relaxing walk through the woods with our horses, Maggie, Easter, and Anna this morning. Since my selling Dusty I have really not been to the barn at all other then for quick visits, so this time with the horses was like heaven for me. I was once again able to follow through with that oh so familiar routine or brushing, cleaning hooves and talking with these beautiful creatures. This also allowed me to talk and spend time with my sisters on their own ground. They have been pushing for me to spend more time with them a lot as of late(something I wish to do, but alas I am not sure how to fulfill anymore) so this was a great opportunity for all of us.

The afternoon was not so relaxing but very fun. I went to the Fort Lee pool with Rachel, Tony, John, and Josh J. I think I spent a good 4+ hours in the water without taking a break. It was wonderful. We all had a lot of good convo, laughter, and dunking each other until we were sputtering for breath. After this we all went to Luca's for a very yummy pizza :] it was a very fun afternoon.

At dinner tonight Josh made an interesting observation that I am far less mature when I am in the company of the rest of our group and that they were managing to bring me down to their maturity level. This is a point that I have been told before but still one of interest. I told him that I know this and we left it at that, but reality is that that is how I want it. I have self analyzed a lot on this topic and am very confidant that the reason I enjoy spending time with that group is that they give me the chance to be a kid again, to drop all the pressure of being "grown up" or "mature" and let me just let loose and relax once in while. It's an amazing thing, to be able to joke around and have fun with friends. I think it's one of those things that has a time and a place, so it can't be all the time, but when it's in it's right place, it's quite wonderful. So, here is a thought, "what is the 'proper' maturity level?", "can it be judged by age like that?" for is not maturity based upon social and cultural norms? Yes, as a Christian you should abide by Christ's commands, but what about all of the cultural things that people complain about? When I start V.B.S. next week we shall all act like kids again, every person working there from 18-68 acts far younger then is socially acceptable so is that the key? that only when working with kids a person can act young? I have no answer for this.

Anywho, that's a side trip, all in all, the day was a very good one and I am looking forward to spending some quality time with Andrew tomorrow(if he ever calls me) and for an exciting week of V.B.S. to come ^_^

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