Life has been turned upside down for me as of late, or maybe it's just been turned right side up...either way, things have changed.
Being Single for the first time in almost 2 years has posed some challenges as of late. Other then a ton of getting used to it has also presented the element of guys feeling free to make passes at me, something I can honestly say I have never really had much experience with. Right now I am still dealing with a ton of emotionally issues from the breakup(which happened about a month and a half ago).
I have been far less stressed, but also am having to force myself to not fall pray to the all popular "guy hopping" that so many females I know have been pulled into. For the first time in my life I understand what they were going through. A part of me feels as if it needs a guy to be whole, as if not having a man there and supporting me emotionally makes me less of a woman. Where in the last 2 years did I lose my wholeness? When did being me stop being enough? So as I am trying to regain my sense of self I am being bombarded by another problem...guys.
Before Andrew, I never had to many guys seem interested in me, oh sure they wanted to be friends, but never more. Well during those 2 years all of my close guy friends decided that they were gonna take their own shot at dating me and now I have become a target of sorts. I love them all very much, but I need to get back on my feet. One of them has been very persistent over the last month and is about to the point where I shall have to tell him to back off.
Though, through all of this one of my guy friends has been a constant; a person for me to lean on and just be me around(to bad my rents can't stand him). So I guess all of them have not been bad as he has been my rock(other then God who def comes first as far as that is concerned! :).
Anyhow, this jumble of thoughts makes up my life atm, God, family, school, friends, and relationships. they are all coming at me from dif angles, but I am not all that stressed about it(at least not like I very well could be). So another day goes by; another page is turned and maybe one of these days I will figure it all out...maybe.
