After The Storm

So things are still a mess.
I know know fully what everyone thinks and feels and am still not sure how I myself feel about all of this. I agree with both sides, yes he said things in a frustrated and sarcastic manor because he was mad at them and wanted to vent his frustrations. He was saying the worst possible thing that they could think of him...and now because of his stating this it is exactly how they view him. I know he would not hurt me, I know that things just got out of hand and misunderstood. But i also understand what they are going through. They have a right to freak out. They have a right to be mad. They have a right to want to protect. But can they not see that it was not a threat? That he was not out to harm me, but trying to express frustration.
*sigh*
Life can't seem to be simple.
I am no longer allowed to use Facebook at home unless I "un-friend" him. Therefore, until my laptop is up and running again, I will not be on anymore. Hence why I am on here again, for I have no other place to vent atm.
I am no longer allowed to have him the the car with me(as the car's belong to my dad), can't go over to John's if he is to be there, and don't even bring up ever going to his house.
So, pretty much my life sucks atm.
The beach trip that we planned for tomorrow is still to happen, but with out me. This hurts more then anything atm for I had been really looking forward to this trip. The idea of spending a day in the sun and sand with some of my best friends was the most wonderful thing I could think of doing.

To help keep my mind off of things I have had the 8 puppies back at my home again. They are growing every day and just get cuter ^_^ They started wagging their tails when they see us now and even wrestling. It's so sweet. They are also teething so we have to watch out if we want to keep all of our fingers ;)

Tonight I am spending time with the boy friend and am looking forward to being with him for a few hours, though I am still not sure what he will say about all of this. He would see things like my father does. We shall see what his mood is tonight. If he is not to upset already then we may talk about it.

The storm is over. As I try to cope with things as the storm moves past I am now faced with the wreckage and destruction in my life. It's is gonna get better, but things will not be the same...